at this point of time, i'm sick....

...medically...
...physically...

i was at church today and saw 3 kids playing on a baby pushing "cart" (i don't really know the name of the thing) and i was thinking if i could change back time, i would want to go back to childhood again.

i want the freedom again.

i'm tired of having only 6 hours of sleep every day. i miss my childhood.

and i don't think i could remember my childhood anymore. all i remember was being enclosed in some dark storage room.

when i was young, my brothers and i have a caretaker each. i always change mine because (it was claimed that) i was naughty.

there's this one particularly fierce one. and i remember being locked in the toilet for not eating my food.

and now i can still feel my rage for her. i see other children now who doesn't want to eat too and they don't get to be locked into toilets. i think this is one of the reason why i am a little scared of the dark now.

well, i'm tired now. i have assignments to do. and this is my due date list:

(now is week 4's sunday)
week 5: EAP written assignment / biology assignment
week 6: HOI written assignment
week 7: EAP speech presentation
week 8: drama rehearsal
week 9: chemistry speech presentation

very busy now...

sian...

God bless you!

druu